I am not a good actress.
I am also not what I would call socially graceful.
I sometimes am too outspoken, especially in what I view as "business" relationships (which includes service providers in the boys' case). With "friends" and many times family, I am too passive.
Sometimes I don't like the person that other people see as "me" and I feel like what I see myself as and what they see do not match up. And sometimes it goes the other way - people think I'm way better than I know I am.
Isn't that interesting?
It's hard to find balance. I am hoping that with some sort of break from the kids that I can have some more adult time, like spend some more time with my friends, maybe go to coffee once a week or something, you know what I mean? And also spend more time in the Bible and more time with God.
Sometimes I feel like I'm just in my own little world and I think it makes me not be so great of a person. Or at least, it doesn't make me any better.
Random, I know. But just some thoughts.